Raya without Abah

It has been 15 years, my family and I celebrated Raya without abah. So many things happened in between those long years.
It was that long mom been by herself to take care of me and the rest of the siblings.
It was also the same time when I lost my abang long in an accident.
But I am blessed that we are still here today and be able to gather at mom's place again to celebrate Raya.
Happy to see my sister as well as my niece and nephew.
As for celebrating Raya without abah and abang long, i still have this empty feeling although it has been many years been without them.
I'm not close to abah but I do missed his presence. He was very strict. What do u expect from a disciplinary teacher? I know he loved us, it just that he's not someone who you say expressive over his feeling except for anger but I loved him still after all he's my father.
My abang long hmm... what can I say about him. Loved him but God loved him more. We were buddies.
Pagi Raya was the hardest. Mom cried. WE were all crying. Sentimental abis bila dengar takbir.
This year Raya is no different from the previous one. Just something happen on the fourth day of Raya which took the joy away.
What was it? Well..sometimes it best just let it be kept a secret.
But I'm glad at least I got home and be with mom, enjoyed her cooking. loveeeeeee her fried noodle, nasik lemak and ayam goreng belacan.
I wish abah and abang long were here. I envy those who still have their mom and dad with them.
Missed that feeling.
So those who still have mom and dad, cherish them. They can be cranky. Overly sensitive. Act like a baby sometimes, overly protective, serious folks and so many more that probably make you want to scream from on top of your lung.
They however still your parents.
So Selamat Hari Raya to all of you that stop by at this blog to read my post. Minta ampun dan maaf kalau terkasar bahasa atau ada apa2 dalam blog yang menyinggungkan perasaan.

whats the fuss about?

I was born in a very small town in Seberang Perai where chinese is the main population.
Malays and Indians considered minority in town. Well, our numbers are quite big but most of the malays stays in kampung while indians in estates. chinese right smack in town.
But you know despite of having chinese conquering the town, we have mosque and hindu temple not far from each other.
I'd say about 10 minutes walk? But never. Never in my life, during my childhood or throughout my teen years that we ever fight about the worship place.
Hindus can peacefully perform their prayers tho main road sometimes jam because cars were not parked properly but thats about it. Same with the muslim. This coming Hari Raya going to cause a bit jam in town due to Raya prayers but its a normal thing when it comes to festive season. Its not an everyday thing.
I believe that we have to tolerate a little bit in order to coexist.
If you say the sound of bell of a hindu temple annoying then what about the sound of azan? or the sound of those who recited quran?
As for chinese? They did not make a fuss over this that i know of. Oh besides temple and mosque, my town also have churches and chapel.
There's one in my residential area. about five minutes walk from my house.
It was my playground when i was young.
I snuck in to play the swing.no one say anything about it.
Chinese everywhere in my residential area. Would be hard to miss them.
There's indians too even though its not many but we are fine. So I a bit confuzzled about all the fuss created by Section 23 residents in Shah Alam.
Read this. Shah Alam Section 23
Whats wrong with having temple there?
Wake up! we live in a multiracial country. Do not be selfish. Stop complaining and be thankful that we are not restricted in perfoming our prayers or going to god worship place.
I love my country well i know it sounds a bit cheesy but I do love my country. And i love our diversity. I love the fact that we are multiracial. There;s no problem before, and should be maintained that way. Respect is the word for us to keep and to hold.